When my family is sleeping, dreaming sweet dreams,
I’m wide awake, crying, trying not to see.
That I’m not that happy girl you see with a big beautiful smile,
I’m the girl that is bleeding inside, so broken and I
Have to face the real world everyday.
That world is filled with disappointment and hurt,
I feel so alone, even in a crowded room.
I feel cold, when the sun is shining bright,
I feel unloved, even surrounded by my friends.
I feel ignored, so doomed and lost,
When my friends are out having fun.
I’m alone in my room wondering why,
I’m so different from everyone else, so unique and sad.
Don’t know what to believe in anymore, love or even God,
Why does he hate me? I ask myself.
Does he see I need help, attention, and things to figure out?
I feel so scared, when there is nothing to fear,
I feel so torn, but still in one piece.
I feel distant yet some cruel towards the people around me,
I feel death, I can feel it near.
They try to understand my pain, my feelings,
But they end up lost in my mind that’s pretending
To be lighthearted, when I’m about to explode with anger.
I can’t forget my past, present, and future,
I’m so tired of feelings of loneliness.
Sitting in the dark, crying, full with regret
